Does it feel real good?

NO IT DOESN'T. NO. ROBIN THICKE. NO. SHUT THE FOX UP.

Yeah. Sorry. That was one hell of an intro.

Anyway.

Updates on my medical condition. Nope, I'm not lying in a coma, nope, I've not (yet) went to the hospital, and no, most certainly, have I not skipped school since Tuesday.

It's really weird. Monday, I wasn't feeling that bad. It was just a mild fever and a bit of runny nose. I was fine. I was fit to go school. I just... didn't have the feel for it. Seeing that the timetable says 5:30pm being the last lesson, I'd probably just suffer from epilepsy and drown in my saliva or something.

Things got worse on Tuesday. Woke up, feeling okay, around 37.2C which was fine enough for me to go school. I had to. Well, I had important tasks to do. But then, I didn't feel great after break (Oh wow that rhymes). So, seeing that my lessons would end at 12:30pm, I had to bear with it (NO I AM NOT BEAR GRYLLS, STOP ASKING ME. I keed.).

Could bearly stand straight though, so I got Dad to come and send me home. Thanks Daddy~ Took a nap at home for 3 hours, and then had to adjust my braces in the evening. This time, the braces were really a lot tighter than the pink ones I had, so I took 45 minutes to eat dinner. And my throat. It really hurt. Plus the braces' tightness. Wow. Amazing.

Even doge had to comment.

Wednesday. Went to school again, feeling fine. Couldn't eat the breakfast though, some weird-ass nut-filled bread that was un-bite-able and un-swallow-able. Took 2 bites and then got some ice and started putting on my forehead. Still had the sense that I was feverish. Still, went to school and yolo-ed again.

Lunch was torture. I mean, the people I went with were really great great friends (Meng Leng, Huda, Joanne, Alvin and Shaun). But the process of eating had me almost tearing. Like, tearing in terms of crying and tearing in terms of tearing my throat apart. I tried to order the least hard-to-swallow thing - noodles - but it didn't work. I gave up halfway, frustrated but I won't want to disappoint my friends too or worry them too much.

Obviously by then my brain was half-fried and running on a Windows 95 processor.

Went for squash trials after playing Headsup Charades at the stage, and well, I couldn't train with the recreational players because I was really really not feeling fit enough. Could only talk to and watch the J1s trial.

Oh by the way, GREAT JOB to the many OGMs from OG19 who came to see see look look! Some even tried, and I can see potential in y'all. :) Hope y'all become my juniors.

So yeah, overwhelming responses meant we were overloaded. 100+ people came. To apply for 16 slots in the team. Wow. I really admire how everyone came to try. It's not about the aptitude, it's about the attitude at the start. Even if y'all don't get in, the remaining 90+ people, you have my salute for trying. Thank you for gracing the trials! Really made me happy to see such a big response.

Back to the topic, so I went to Bedok Mall with Kai Jie, my fellow recre squasher and really good friend that I can share football news, squash stuff and, well, just talk to comfortably, with. Went home after that and I was really really down. Like, it just escalated downwards.


No, please. Do not.

So yeah, had a lot of pain eating dinner even if it was just rice and minced-pork-that-was-initially-supposed-to-be-pork-chop. Thanks mum for mincing them all for me. :)

Took 40 minutes and it was painful. It was bad. I wished I could go to the hospital, have a tube into my stomach, and liquid food just pumped in so I don't feel hungry. I don't even feel like eating anymore, it's just... For the first time. Yes. For the first time, I actually do not feel like eating. At all.

So yeah, here I am, typing this rant about my health. Obviously, I'm frustrated at my body. I always take decades to recover from a small illness. Last time I had fever, I had a virus and couldn't go to school for a week. And I jolly well hope it doesn't happen again. Not in JC. It'll be a nightmare to catch up.

Not saying I'm a mugger (I seriously am not), but really, times like this we all need to be sensible and weigh the pros and cons.

Would I exchange going school on Monday for 8 periods and miss Tuesday's and Wednesday's combined 8 periods? Maybe. Should have.

Nevermind, I'm tired, and I can't do work. I am drained. But that doesn't mean I'm giving up on myself. I'm not, and I won't. I have to fight this stupid thing that goes against me. It's torture, though, for now.

So next time, if you see me in school just silently waving at you whilst you expect an enthusiastic response from the typical me, you may not get it till I fully recover.

Okay. Done for today. No karaoke. No fried food. No spicy food. No shouting. No screaming. Maybe here's when my phone shines. May just scribble what I want to say on it. Don't be surprised if I come to you and flash my phone screen saying, "Hi! Can I eat your sandwich?"

If only I can pause time, I would. I would press the "pause" button - just need "pause" and "play" buttons really - and just take some time to rest, to heal. To recover from all these hectic schedules and just calm down. Shame that the sickness came at the start of the week, and it just screws up my entire week. Like, there's so many things happening this week, I can't afford to lose out on anything. At all.

I don't breakdown and cry, because while I do know crying makes people better, it also makes your eyebags watery and just unpleasant. Nah. I just... I don't cry. I just, stand in silence and just recollect my thoughts. That's what I prefer to do. I try to look on the positive side everytime, despite being the realist that I am. That's just how I work.

Ok absolutely drained like a... drain... now.

Whoever has read this, hope you don't grow wrinkles or anything. Don't be sad or sympathise me, just let me rant and rant and rant. I'll feel better myself. I'd rather be left alone. Thank you~

Should I go school tomorrow though? I don't know. Tomorrow is a long day with a lot of important lessons. But I'm in bad condition. Should I stay in the oven - as a pie should do - or go out into the open and risk getting smashed?

Fuzzy Wuzzy
THE-MAN-NEEDING-RECALIBRATION

Quote of the day:
"Fuzzy Wuzzy likes Liverpool but not Manchester United."