A few of us went to have dinner after watching TJ Drama's exhilarating performance! The play was titled The Remembrance & The Forgetting. Somewhat relevant to what we were talking about over bowls of Ipoh Horfun at 9pm at Bedok Mall.

And I agree with Shaun... partly.

When I am good friends with someone, I would reach out to a large extent just to help that someone. It doesn't always bode well, because if that person doesn't treasure you, you lose out.

So the food for thought is: is relative importance of friendship on both parties that essential? Do we really expect a return from the other party? Should it be unconditional?

Well, we are all humans. We expect a return of some sort. It's just the extent to which we expect.

For me, personally, while I wouldn't expect a full return, I would want to be acknowledged. To not just be seen as someone who only needs me when there's trouble. It makes me sad when what I give isn't reciprocated. I'm not even talking about fully; I just want that acknowledgement, and the reassurance that I'm not being used.

Things have changed since last year. Some friends have become like that. It makes me sad sometimes, but then I realise that these people are not meant to be. They are just passers-by, teaching you a lesson. It's fine, we all learn from that. It's what makes me more resistant, stronger.

Maybe that's why I may be partly broken too. I may be scared of committing myself to someone. A friend or a crush or a bestie. Whichever. It hasn't affect me largely, but it's still a lesson that some people come and go.

Will time give me the answer? Or will I be regretful that I didn't commit myself to a friendship/relationship?

No idea.

But that's why it's so magical! I love the complexity of such things. It makes me wonder what things might have been and what may be.

Either way, past few days, particularly today, has made me think a lot about the people around me. P!NK sings in one of my favourite tracks, Try, "When you're out there doing what you're doing, are you just getting by? Tell me are you just getting by?" Still one of my favourite lines of all time.

I know this is not the typical humourous me, but I just felt it's something I had to type. Right now, sitting on my bed and wanting to sleep, I took out my phone and realised how much I want to say.

So there you go. All I said is above. If you've read this whole chunk, well done! You deserve a free kiss from me.

Hershey's Kisses.

If you skipped to read the ending, you get a kiss too.

A kiss from my Adidas shoes.

Peace out
BITCHYBOI96

Quote of the day:
"Uh but we very guai (obedient) one what, you also don't need to scold us anyway."